Well.. So late in the night. what's there to talk now? hmm.. oh ya... Of coz firstly, HAPPY 2008! forgotten it was actually the first day of 2008. Late night here trying to rush my project. Yeah. The last few projects that i am going to do. haha.. i guess i was sounding a bit, more with feel.

Had been having school break for the last 2 weeks. Yesterday was really resting, not going out. Due to soar throat and cough. But i still want to eat something nice at this last day of 2007. So i ordered food. Lasagne, meatballs, chicken wings. Enough for me to feel satisfied. Shuhui came to my house. Saw the fireworks @ Boon Lay. Just bring up thr spirit. She treated me some mini ice-creams, chocolate flavor, not good for my throat, though it's always my flaourite.

had a potluck on Sunday morning with my cell girls. cooked some japanese chicken. of coz it's nice. cause me to sound like a man now.

Guess it's my turn to blog, and it's something i got to share.

Saturday night while walking home, received a few missed calls from Hansiong, was feeling kinda of like "what's wrong with your phone". Finally, picked up the phone. Here's the conversation -

He : "You remembered the Taekwondo Ah Wee?"

Me : "Haha.. erm.. I think so. Why? He's dead?" At this point, I was still in a joking attitude, I don't know why i said that but i know clearly that this could be the reason that HS called me.

And true enough, he was dead. In a car accident. He rode on a motobike on Saturday morning, he's not the driver. A vehicle hit it and he fell onto the buse road and got hit by a lorry.

I was thinking, what was he thinking at the moment when he fell onto the road to the point the lorry ran over him. It should be a spilit second, and he's gone. What was he thinking at the last second of his life. Does he knows that the next second he will not be able to think again? I think he don't.

I definitely did not cry, just feeling kinda watery in my eyes, tear that don't flow. Life can be so vulnerable.

Yesterday, the TKD people went for his wake. Looking at him inside the coffin, I only see a handsome looking guy without soul. I remembered the first time i went home with him, chongren & Desmond, he's gentle and quiet. Why is it until now then can we all gathered? Why did not we do it earlier? True, we weren't really very close. But i believe the same thing applied to people around us.

Will people remember him? Maybe for a while? Maybe those really close? But peopl like me? People that he once met, once jouney together?

I had seen him in SP a few times, I would always thought of this, never mind, NEXT TIME when we meet again at TKD outing or what, then say hello.

But NEXT TIME never come. If i get to see him again, I would say that I still remembered you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jLi8fvvLfU

    ArHemm... It was since sometime tt i last blog.. guess i was really quite upset by certain things.. It never cross my mind about this until i suddenly realise it.. Seriously, i don know am i really that busy. To be frank, i am really that busy.. I do wonder sometime if it's my fault? i could only say i tried my best..

This thoughts had been with me for some time, but i did not want to say, did not want to blow up the matters... But there's something within me telling me that it's really time to make it clear.. Really time to let it out if I still want this friendship..

This blog of mine, belongs to Shuhui, Geok Hwa, Jasmine, Mavia, Pei Ching & Hweeting especially.. Whenever i wrote, most of the time to for you, to keep you updated, to let you know what's going on with me & what's my thoughts.. Of coz, this are my thoughts...

I don not how much you gers believe this but you are the one i keptclose at heart.. Yesterday i was just thinking of me (or any of the girls) wedding day when we all gather at my house, waiting for the groom to come/what i am wearing for your wedding...

But there's one thing that disturb me alot, and that's Shuhui. I am not saying you're irritating.. What disturb me was that you are the one tt i really did not get to see or talk to.. I never blame you. i believe you are living happier now. But what disturb me was that i hate to say or feel that i(or we) can be replaced. seriously, i hope we cant... but sometime, the devil just want to deceive me..

This are wat i wrote before talking to Shuhui, NOW, it's the after....

I feel so much better.. at least i know she's still with us.. i really want to see us to marrige, kids, old... So keep this promise k?

I love Hweeting always

I love Peiching forever

I love Mavia till I am old

I love Jasmine with all my heart

My love for Geok Hwa never end.

My love for Shuhui never change.

You girls will always be in my HEART!

Pictures of us GIRLS...

Hweeting, Mavia, Peiching, Jasmine, Huishan

clockwise- shan, via, jas, Ting, Ching

 
Peiching birthday at Fish & Co. @ Jurong East

The gift that Fish & Co. gave her.. We're so AMaZEd!!

Cheeezzzzeeeee girrrrrrrrlllllllllssssssssssssssss....... 

Anti-clockwise-Ching, shan, jas, geok hwa, Yanling, Shuhui(with the V)

Went for dinner on tuesday evening with the Tuesday group... had a wonderful sharing on the group.. well.. suddenly realize that actually, if the ppl tt belongs to 4n1 wanted to keep in contact and in a regular basic, all we need is a person to volunteer to msg us the time and place as reminder, and the rest of us jus set a certain day of the week to meet... one or two hours also can... but anyway, who would like to volunteer? even if someone volunteer, are you guys and gers who belong here willing to commit yourselves?? well, i heard the answer "See first..." well, i do willing to commit myself... well, do agree that there are times where i am reali busy doing stuffs in school... but trust me, i will be there as long as i can make it...

hey guys and gers, not reali blaming anyone for it, jus telling you guys i am willing to commit myself.. how about you?? jus tink that unless each of us are willing to sacrifice our time, if not, let's not say anyone never try to make time for another one...

haha... sounded a bit fierce... let's come back, i don mean any harm... jus writing a bit on my thoughts... don noe why... do hope you guys will make the effort too... :)

Wednesday i went PS area looking for a dress... watched Death Water.. alright lo... and had my nachos with cheese... actually, i like the cheese more than the nachos... i guess most of us too... but the most favorite part of the day was the sushi dinner... went to a sushi restuarant and eat sushi.. it was so cool and fun and interesting... don noe how to say... jus like the feeling of stuffing the whole sushi into my mouth.... we should go for it one time......

Friday, had a wonderful lunch @ FC 1, the Chicken and Egg bowl.. it's reali nice... if you are ever here, i'll bring u there.. haaha.. anyway, watched "Stuck on You" during break... quite funny... after sch went to woei guan's hse to celebrate Yong Chen's bday... we waited for KFC for 1 hour plus... and watched Spiderman 2... when Chen was making a wish in front of her kaya cake, we got ready the whipped cream and smashed into her face once she opened her eyes... so the rest of time we had been smashing cake...... quite nice time with the ger...

SHUHUI:
I tell you! you better read my blog jus like i read your blog... WA HA HA HA..... anyway, my attachment coming on 12 Feb to 14 Feb @ Jurong East... WA HA HA HA...  And you wan to volunteer yourself after reading the first paragraph?? hahahaaaaaa......